To Booga, From Daddy, With Love

My dearest Booga Wooga, It's been five months since Bubby went to be with Jesus. In the last few days, I've noticed just how much you miss him. And I want you to know that I miss him, too. So much. Mommy and Daddy are so very sad that Bubby isn't around anymore. We love you very much, and we love Bubby very much, and that's why we cry sometimes. It's OK to cry when you miss someone you love.

Bubby loved you so very much. He was so excited about being your big brother. He got to meet you for the first time on his 2nd birthday. I don't remember him smiling or laughing with delight over anything quite like he did you. You were his precious baby sissy, and he loved you from the first moment.

Bubby loved sharing his toys with you, as well as his books—really, anything he thought you might like, whether he owned it or not. He was always bringing you random things for you to "play with," even frozen fruit, even though such things don't make very fun toys. But Bubby could make a toy out of almost anything, and Bubby loved sharing his toys with you because he loved you.

When you would wake up each morning, Bubby was usually already awake, and he's exclaim with lots of joy, "There she is! There's the sweet girl!" Booga, you are indeed a very sweet girl, and Mommy and Daddy could not have ever expected a better little girl.

One day, you woke up and Bubby didn't We don't know why Bubby went to be with Jesus. I don't think we'll ever know. Sometimes sad things happen in life, and we have no idea why. But remember how much Bubby loved you? And remember how much Mommy and I love you? Well, I want you to remember something else:

God loves you more than Bubby, Mommy, or Daddy ever could. God loves Mommy and Daddy too, and he's been with us every step of the way as we have cried and missed Bubby. God loves crying people. In fact, Daddy thinks God loves crying people most of all.

Booga, Daddy loves you so much, and I'm going to do all I can to protect you from every bad thing in life. But there will come a time when I fail or am simply not there to protect you from bad things. One of these days, you'll cry, and Daddy won't be able to do anything about it. It really hurts Daddy's feelings to say that, and I hope that day doesn't come for a very long time. Like, when you're at least 65.

But when it does come, and you cry because something sad has happened, Daddy wants you to remember that God loves you. And he's going to be with you in your tears just like he is with Mommy and Daddy now. And God loves you, tears or no tears. Bubby loved you. Mommy and Daddy love you. But God loves you more than all of us combined.

And if you will learn from Mommy and Daddy how to love God, you'll see Bubby again one day. And it will be in a place where we will never cry or be sad again. That's one thing Daddy believes more than anything else.

I love you, forever and always,